Saturday, 22 July 2017

Шкафът/The cabinet


                                                       I noticed something in the foyer:
                                                       a cabinet with smoked glass doors –
                                                       a fanciful designer motif,
                                                       distraction for waiting guests.

                                                       Inside, mementoes or signs
                                                       from another time gone by:
                                                       products of a craft
                                                       that sustained them

                                                       without clues to whom
                                                       they might have belonged –
                                                       though objects from a life
                                                       being realised in the world.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Friday, 14 July 2017

След няколко години/A few years later



                                                            The lizard breathes in summer
                                                            while it rests on the wall.

                                                            Vulnerable, unconcerned,
                                                            it’s waiting for evening cool
                                                            and the insects’ return.

                                                            History has turned
                                                            its ugly back on us.

                                                            From inside the house
                                                            I can hear the gulls
                                                           that warn of difficult weather.

                                                            She has put flowers in a jug
                                                            to remind us
                                                            of where we first met.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Friday, 7 July 2017

Рила/Rila


Our wishes remain in the wall,
scribbled, folded tight and slipped
between the stones. It’s a point
at which we’ll decide how much
we’ll put trust in our coincidence.

I’ll have every faith, no doubt.
We’re walking upwards
and talking of this and that
as we’ll emerge beyond the treeline
and the vast valley opens below us.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips


Thursday, 29 June 2017

До морето/Beside the sea


A ship’s bright lights against low cloud –
it’s almost as if summer is ending too soon.
And it has done, or felt like it did, one year ago.

On long promenades where kids jump
and monuments are distractions
or remnants of sagas best forgotten,

we’d be walking out of the tunnel
that links the old town and the new.
I’m familiarly displaced in long trousers,

that shirt. That curt farewell
was everything that we had coming.

In the aftermath of another unexpected turn,
I’m the one who’s having to trace my way
above a seaside resort’s beckoning lights.

Newspaper splashes do their best to vie
with rolling-over waves at the shore.
We were out here, at some point,

escaping fierce, unfamiliar sun,
the news, a decision that came to us,
reported from all directions.

That shirt. That curt farewell.
That was everything we had coming.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips



Saturday, 24 June 2017

Екзотика/Exotica


We are snuck in deep – that’s the hope.
The beds of exotics strive towards the sun.
Banana plants, orchids, the geraniums
that you didn’t know the word for –
and our grasping at language too.

This is where we are making our home
because the other one is being taken away –
not by those who come here,
but by those who insist on the differences,
who think they have a monopoly.

Maybe I am too dull to understand,
but I think I know what it will feel like
when the cases are unpacked
when we’ll be off to the shops
to buy milk and bread and cheese,
when the pot plants are out on the balcony.

Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips



Friday, 16 June 2017

Малките вещи вкъщи/Little things around the house



She’s already begun, sifting through
what we’ve taken for granted: the beasts
and other ornaments from the years
we’ve been together. She’s stern –
or trying to be – with our memories.
It has to be done. These shelves
which we hardly even noticed
are to be cleared. We’re moving out.

She’s already begun but I can’t imagine
how I’m ever going to get started.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips


Friday, 9 June 2017

Прогноза/Prognosis



                                                Not so long after dawn, the looming light
                                                is nostalgia for the sea in a landlocked country
                                                until there it is across the tree-studded field,
                                                returning colour like repaying a debt.

                                               The line advances, it’s pushing back.
                                               Things change overnight and the sun hits
                                               straight across the building sites.
                                               But then, at the end of the lane,
                                               there is always some hope,
                                               some shop that’s always open –
                                               the prognosis for other futures.

                                               Beyond the doorway and the window,
                                               life sprawls exactly as it’s always done
                                               and there’s the kettle and this is the view.

Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips


Friday, 2 June 2017

Стъкло/Glass


                                                    The decanters locked in the cabinet
                                                    with cocktail sticks and duty-free cigars
                                                    were the perks of the job, my father’s,
                                                    finally getting to fly at thirty-five.
                                                    They came out for parties, those nights
                                                    when friends came round to drink gin
                                                    while he ran through his latest slides –
                                                    New York, Nairobi, Tehran,
                                                    skyscrapers and street markets
                                                    under the same pellucid sun.

                                                    Never good to think how the years go by.
                                                    They’re not like turnings off a street
                                                    we didn’t take and can now revisit.
                                                    Those were his moments as each click
                                                    brought up another photograph,
                                                    and the decanters went round
                                                    and the neighbours talked and laughed
                                                    and the world looked just slightly larger.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Thursday, 25 May 2017

Самопортрет с тютюн мустаци/Self-portrait with tobacco moustache



                                             The owner of the tobacco-yellowed moustache
                                             allows himself to spend a short time in the yard.
                                             He turns his face towards the sun like a lizard
                                             who’s looking for the best place for an afternoon nap.
                                             Behind his back he hears a sound which he’s expecting:
                                             the footsteps he remembers from the far past.
                                             Dream or nightmare? He doesn’t know.
                                             The walls of the building look real enough
                                             and the colours of the flowers bloom brightly.
                                             Did he say something he shouldn’t have?
                                             The flowers stay the same, colourful, impartial.
                                             A procession passes in the street. Planes
                                             cross the sky. A car engine coughs.
                                             The owner of the tobacco-yellowed moustache
                                             counts the windows of his house, its eyes.
                                             He finds a vase and fills it with reminders.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Thursday, 18 May 2017

Думата, коята не можем да кажем/The word that we cannot say



                                                    Is изход.

                                                    Outside the National Theatre building again,
                                                     I’m doing my best to explain
                                                     how such things happen – that thought
                                                     which turned into a threat
                                                     and missed the point.

                                                     Not money, but my passport
                                                     burns a hole in my pocket.
                                                     It’s not at home here
                                                     and neither will I be
                                                     when we place ours over
                                                     these virtual readers
                                                     and it’s confirmed
                                                     that I belong to the database.

                                                     I’m thinking here, perhaps,
                                                     of walking back
                                                     to the apartment I let myself into –
                                                     the known walk to the lift,
                                                     the counted steps to the door,
                                                     the intimate geography
                                                     of where I'm living now
                                                     and the vase on the table
                                                     that holds these actual flowers.

Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Saturday, 13 May 2017

Еднa бреза/A birch tree



No sun blaze but clear walking weather
sheds light on gangly buttercups
just beyond where tarmac promenade
gives out to flinted towpath.
Across the water, the signs that read
Private – no mooring sit next to
half-heartedly flapping Unions Jacks.

Escaped ornamental geese have no truck
with gated houses on the other bank:
they stand in the downstream breeze,
look truculent and squawk
at species not behaving as they should.
As if on cue, ducks mob a sitting target
of transplanted gulls and gulls,
transplanted, duck in and out
of midge clouds, changing their diet.

A heavy-footed jogger stops and turns
for home and there on the footpath
is a dog that’s silly with fur.
Accents speak louder than words.

On the way in, returning,
consciously retracing steps,
everything’s doing its best
to look unfamiliar –
this England poised
between Heathrow flight paths
and the Thames Valley.

And not so far beyond
the rowing club, the one-way
roundabout system –
beyond that bridge or near to it –
there’s a silver birch.
There’s this one here in paint.
There’s this one here in words.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Saturday, 6 May 2017

Връщане/Return


                                                         I’m coming back to the town
                                                         where I was born –
                                                         a small town in the country
                                                         with a market and shops,
                                                         a pub and a church –
                                                         but today, today no people.
                                                         Only I walk round the monument
                                                         to the unknown soldier
                                                         and visit the empty rooms
                                                         of the school.
                                                         The whole town is empty,
                                                         empty as a desert.
                                                         I have dreamed until
                                                         I’ve forgotten my past.

                                                         At the end of the street
                                                         where I lived, the pavement
                                                         still ends at the gardens
                                                         of the manor house.
                                                         There’s no one to ask
                                                         what's happened –
                                                         although the long
                                                         hawthorn bushes
                                                         play in the breeze
                                                         and shine in the sun.
                                                         No return is ever
                                                         what it seems.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Friday, 28 April 2017

Прилики/Resemblances


                                                        It seems it’s how we make sense
                                                        of small corners of the world.
                                                        Or that’s the line I’ve been taking
                                                        all afternoon, not being able
                                                        to see anything entire –
                                                        but only from certain angles
                                                        and that’s how we find
                                                        what matters. It might just
                                                        be me – as the headlines
                                                        stacked up on station newsstands
                                                        seem to be suggesting –
                                                        until, home now, I’ve a chance
                                                        to look at things differently,
                                                        again in my own small way.

                                                        Like when flaking blossom drifts
                                                        might have been flecks of snow
                                                        or tonight when I was walking home
                                                        and purple mountainous clouds
                                                        banked up behind apartment blocks
                                                        might have been Vitosha
                                                        and the backdrop to our next home.

Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Friday, 21 April 2017

Възприемане/Perception



                                                               I’m sticking by water.
                                                               It’s done nothing wrong.
                                                               It doesn’t divide the shores
                                                               of this lake. It joins them.
                                                               The same with that island.
                                                               Islands don’t float on air
                                                               and air is also a form
                                                               of connection (you’d not
                                                               hear me speak otherwise –
                                                               or that broadcaster on-air).

                                                               Looked at from here
                                                               all there is between us
                                                               are waves and the world
                                                               is an archipelago
                                                               whose shores are blurred
                                                               by tides and salvage
                                                               reminders of migrations.
                                                               Put your ear to the surface
                                                               and you might hear
                                                               the distant sounding of whales.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Friday, 14 April 2017

Буркани/Jars


Just so much light and colour
takes us back to where,
without second thoughts,
we’ll always be unquestioned:
kitchen, ingredients, implements
ready for a life restored,
this fruitfulness already preserved.

Friday, 7 April 2017

Тази маймуна е отишла до Небето/This monkey’s gone to Heaven


There’s a glow across the city brick this afternoon.
The balloons are up and couples discuss their future
on a crowded bar terrace. We let each other pass
on narrow pavements without a word of complaint.
You could almost believe that everything was normal,

that this was precisely what those eons of evolution
were for – the moment in the local corner store,
when, while men dithered by the cabinets, the owner
leant over the counter and waved to the woman
outside with a greyhound. ‘Come in,’ he said. ‘Come in.’

Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips



Saturday, 1 April 2017

От там до тук/From there to here


                                                        I know the way home
                                                        to ulitsa Maglen
                                                        as well as any
                                                        I’ve known.

                                                        The non-stop shop,
                                                        greengrocer,
                                                        tramlines in grass,
                                                        the long shank
                                                        of cyclepath
                                                        leading to nothing
                                                        but neon.

                                                        Auto-pilot
                                                        rolled me out
                                                        of a taxi
                                                        in the wrong street
                                                        at 2am.
                                                        No street dogs
                                                        to guide me then –

                                                        just a blank square
                                                        between apartment blocks
                                                        and the faintest trace
                                                        of flowers that grew
                                                        in an end-of-season goalmouth.

Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Friday, 24 March 2017

Кръг/A circle


                                                             This story has no direction.
                                                             It takes a hike in the woods,
                                                             gets lost amongst the trees.
                                                             In the café at the end of the world,
                                                             it eats black grapes,
                                                             comments on the weather
                                                             and plays heads and tails
                                                             with foreign coins.

                                                             Who cares about it?
                                                             Only the only child
                                                             who can’t get to sleep
                                                             because outside the window
                                                             the black grapes on the vine
                                                             translate the wind into Morse code
                                                             and birds hit the glass
                                                             like coins falling onto a table.

Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Friday, 17 March 2017

Открита земя/Open land


                                             Reading of border country, how easy to be put in mind –
                                             as if it really were a thought refusing to disperse –
                                             of thick cloud above the innocent countryside
                                             and the furthest station we were allowed.
                                             At the end of a different world, we had no choice
                                             but to make a choice, being amongst those
                                             who were free to, as far as we could tell.
                                             Nothing to be dwelt on here but remains
                                             of political exigencies: terrain left wild
                                             so that something other might be tamed.

                                             As the rain blurs sky and horizon, there’s room
                                             for hesitancies, tact, diffusion of old solidities –
                                             an intuition which comes up through the grass
                                             as persistently as this changeable season’s flowers.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Saturday, 11 March 2017

Цветя от езерото/Flowers by the lake


Turn left at the bridge and where tarmac runs out,
I’m back along the shore beside bulrush clumps
and wavelet patterns that no formula explains.
There’s birdsong, though, and a lot of it.
Then the joggers out on a Friday evening,
intent and indifferent. Dog-walkers too –
with their vague apologetic gestures.

Amongst the branches whose verdigris
is a deeper imitation of pale copper roofs,
there might well be some recognisable species.
Insistent billboards line the path
and questions about truth go unanswered.
It’s not about that any more.

In the shallows, a moorhen gingerly steps
from a half-submerged branch
and launches into the mainstream.
We will bring all this round, perhaps,
as the aftermath gathers like a cloud,
and somewhere there is spring
between the footprints that coots leave
and the new buildings which give out
across the botanical gardens.




Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips

Saturday, 4 March 2017

Кратка история на развитието на селското стопанство/A short history of agricultural development



It’s light when I leave for home.
Steadily winter dark’s pushed back.

Too soon to say for sure
but grass fronds are inching clear
of leaf litter scrapping over
the lawns of redbrick houses.

This might be spring’s anteroom.

On lately drenched floodplains,
the sheen of water’s receding
and hawks that moved in
on spruce-fringed gardens,
traffic islands – forced close
by hard frosts – return
to scoping open fields.

There’s a way to go yet.

Tree shadows umbrella
the patches where
there are crocus
when you turn the corner,
there are headlines,
there are fag butts.

You’re distracted.
And I was trying to say,
this might have been the gate
where, years ago, I stood
and the industry of it
was playing out.


Image: Marina Shiderova; text: Tom Phillips